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JESUS is the Way...
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Suicide Notes (Compiled by Edward Aikobua)
Table of Contents:
1. Introduction
2. Danger Talk
3. Confirmed Suicides
4. Te Mi Dra A'dusi [Naye Ofa Ki/ What Are You Dying For]?
INTRODUCTION:
GOD is great, first and foremost!
JESUS saves.
Let the Holy Spirit guide you!
JESUS was betrayed for 30 silver coins by a disciple who later committed suicide by hanging himself on a tree. Judas Iscariot must be the patron saint of people who commit suicide.
Tears wash away the pain in the heart; meanwhile cheers plus rain wash away the tears, but the sun dries them all.
Suicide is a ticket to the Suicide Valley in Hell where the punishment is eternal suicide; you keep killing yourself.
Even though I don't know where GOD sent them in the afterlife, Samson (The Strongest Man of All-Time), King Saul (Chosen by GOD) and Judas Iscariot (Disciple of JESUS and His accountant) committed some form of suicide in the Hebrew Bible, but it is not a virtue. Saul's armour-bearer fell upon his own sword after seeing his master had killed himself in 1st Samuel 31:4-5, Ahithophel hanged himself in 2nd Samuel 17:23 because his counsel was not followed while Zimri burnt the king's house over himself and died after the city was taken in 1st Kings 16:18. Job went through pain and suffering, but did not follow his wife's advice of cursing GOD in order to die. His problems were caused by the Devil who wanted to test Job's faith, but failed.
Jonah was suicidal. Meanwhile, the great Prophet Elijah also wanted to die because of the murderous Queen Jezebel, but went to Heaven alive.
Suicide is self-murder; the Earth is big enough for all of us to share and enjoy to our fill. Our existence is 33 percent bitter; live with it, do not suffer! Life is hard, but GOD is harder by far. Everybody has problems; sidestepping them mentally is your own personal choice.
Your problems are your wooden cross, carry it until Resurrection!
You cannot get everything you want, but Double Happy-iness is wanting everything you get (which is Contentment).
At the Y-Corner (Junction), either you go left or right! Every pain has its healing remedy, no problem lasts forever and ever.
This book is dedicated to all humans who committed suicide (instead of waiting longer) plus everyone going through very tough and anxious times (including those who have never asked me for help to deal with their mental health problems). It's about cultivating mental numbness in this cold, harsh and cruel world; some things won't go your way, but wait for those that do, even if just 55 or 67 percent.
DANGER TALK (Armageddon of the Brain, National Suicide Monitoring, Depression & Emergency Uganda): The first suicide note in human history was written in Egypt around 2040 BC (Before Christ). I wonder when the first suicide note in Uganda was written, but decided to track why some of my countrymates want to die; others killed themselves successfully. Maybe we can help each other stay alive in this earthly prison and trap. Suicide is a song whispered by the Angel of Death; either you sing along or worship GOD instead, LORD have mercy!
According to World Health Organisation (WHO), 10 out of 100,000 Ugandans commit suicide every year. That is quite high though I do not trust some surveys. For every death, there are more than 20 failed attempts. Globally, suicide is the 2nd Leading Cause of death among young people after Diseases; data translates into 1 death every 40 seconds. According to the Center for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) in America, there were suicide deaths every 11 seconds during Twenty23. There have been very many suicides reported in the media since I was born, but the one that hit me hardest was Chester Bennington (Linkin Park lead singer) in 2017; he was like a posterman for the fight against pain during my A-Level (2001-2) and Campus (2003-6). Another was a 30 year old hardcore Lionel Messi fan in Kerala, India who couldn't carry on with life after watching the GOAT lose 3-0 to eventual runner-up Croatia in Game 2 during the FIFA World Cup Russia 2018 that followed a shocking 1-1 draw with Iceland and put Argentina on the brink of a very early exit. His suicide note read, "I have nothing left to see, am going deep into deaths." Dinu Alex could have stayed to witness the splendour in the 3rd game against Nigeria (Yes it is!) plus Copa America and the record-extending 7th Ballon d'Or in 2021 plus 2022 when Messi finally clinched the only trophy he didn't have. Messi's 4-0 exit during the 2019 UEFA Champions League 2nd leg semifinals against later winners Liverpool after a 3-0 Camp Nou victory almost broke my heart (Had to heal for two days), but I accepted the demise that brought him tears; at least he got the Goal of the Season Award plus 6th BDO then. A 20 year old named Mantosh Haldar (Indian Messi Superfan) also committed suicide, but by hanging himself (not drowning) because of Messi's exit in the Round of 16 against Mbappe's France. He stayed longer than Dinu, but not long enough to see much more including an 8th BDO which he took to Inter Miami in America. Messi always performs wonders after a World Cup year ever since I started following him feverishly in 2009. A 12 year old American Black hanged himself in the bathroom using a belt simply because his parents were too busy to look at his homework. I felt for him because at 12, I was in boarding school signing homework for peers in the place of our Matron who delegated the work to me. I used to mark papers for teachers too. On the calendar, 10th September is World Suicide Prevention Day (WSPD) though the entire fortnight is significant for coping too while 10th October is World Mental Health Day.
We need to promote mental wellbeing and how to cultivate resilience or endurance; praying to GOD can help! Suicide is a cry for help as a way to escape difficulties, purposelessness and hopelessness (No future); it is the inability to cope with life's problems and desiring a permanent way out. Do not deny your zibs nor blame yourself for them! Bad things can end. Everyone is at risk, but not everyone will commit suicide; some attempt and fail while others mindshift. Around Twenty17, Uganda's suicide rate of 19 deaths out of 100,000 people was the 17th Worst on Earth, but 4th in Africa. According to the World Bank's collection of development indicators, it was 5.5 percent of 100,000 in Twenty21. A New Vision Newspaper frontpage headline once reported that "14 Million Ugandans Mentally Sick". Daily Monitor also reported that one out of three Ugandans is mentally unstable. According to CID Director Tom Magambo, 218 suicide cases were recorded in 2024, rising from 165 in 2023.
CONFIRMED SUICIDES:
(Having seen only one attempted suicide in the late 80s on Wilson Road, Jinja where a naked man tried to bury himself inside a sweet potato garden while rain fell, but was ferried away in a white Toyota Land Cruiser), the very first accomplished suicide I can remember quite well in my life was an Itesot smoker and drunkard on Spire Road (also in Jinja during the early 90s) named Ochorodo; he locks up his room and poisons himself. Some neighbours reason that the absence of his mother made him do it. A back window has to be broken to reach his corpse at dusk. He would send me to buy for him cigarettes, but I would refuse because I wanted him to stop smoking; my first Kampala friend's father in Bukoto smoked daily and died of lung cancer. His uncle also smoked and would throw blunts in the compound which we picked to resmoke. I found cigarettes quite sour...
A lovey-dovey rastaman drowns himself at the Source of the Nile where (like Aquaman) he used to rescue people who had fallen in the water after his girlfriend elopes with a Whiteman. I used to admirably watch them walking together on Jinja streets; they looked very complementary like Bob Marley and Lauryn Hill (Turn Your Lights Down Low)! The dreadlocked guy usually held a guitar and the chick wore sexy designer fashions. I wished them happiness together, but things fell apart when the ebony honey eloped with a Whiteman. Some rumours said he went back to where he came from in the water. This story is similar to the song "Nyambura" by Radio & Weasel plus "Under The Lilac" which we used to sing at Victoria Nile School...
A Kyebando Kisalosalo neighbour's wife drowns herself in a Green Valley Kamwokya river; corpse discovered early morning. She was among the first people I saw when my parents moved to Kyebando around 1995...
A Kyebando guesthouse proprietor kills himself...
Politician's son shoots himself with his father's pistol...
Boy jumps from the top of Mabirizi Plaza to the Umeme Railings on Kampala Road. He wrote that his decision was because his family did not pay attention to him. It was truly body-numbing...
Kisalosalo girl kills herself after breaking up with her boyfriend, the news appeared in The New Vision on 1st April with her photo. Who cracks Fool's Day jokes about suicide? It must have happened...
2006: Asha Chekwel hangs herself in a Mariny Parish (Kasere Subcounty, Kapchorwa) church after her in-laws block her from meeting her love Alex Chemwonges...
2012: Liz Waluga, a 2nd Year student of Social Work and Social Administration at Uganda Christian University - Mbale Campus pours paraffin on herself and burns to death after a disagreement with her boyfriend Musa from Islamic University In Uganda (IUIU) who wanted a relationship break in order to concentrate on studies...
2014: One of my Nicest Friends and Hostelmates at Macos named Philip Ekwang aka Philo (pronounced Filo) hangs himself in his muzigo rental because of accumulated debts on the last Tuesday before Arsenal won an FA Cup final after nine trophyless years. The story is broadcast on Bukedde TV's Agataliiko Nfuufu news bulletin as told by my yearmates though I never saw it. I did not celebrate Arsenal's triumph enthusiastically in honour of Philo...
Annet Ashaba, 26, from Ssembabule District, jumps from the 14th floor at Workers House (October 2014) after finding out that a relative had fleeced her of money she sent from Dubai where she had been doing kyeyo...
George William Obina, the 58 year old Chairperson of Koch Goma Subcounty Land Committee hangs himself. The preceding year, elders performed a ceremony to exorcise evil spirits after six people (including four women) committed suicide in one week. In a suicide note found on his body, Obina complains of an unhappy marriage...
Deus Kabisire, 25, jumps off the last floor of Mabirizi Complex. He leaves behind a note showing that he was in love with a woman who was not interested in him even after spending money on her (December 2014)...
2015: Bodaman from Mbarara, but working in Kasese hangs himself on an avocado tree after betting 500,000 UGX (171 US Dollars) that Arsenal would beat Monaco at the Emirates Stadium following a 1-0 win in France; I watched that entire UEFA Champions League knockout game and knew Deus Ruhinda's pain. I've never really felt suicidal after Arsenal losses even though in 2009 I felt my heart melt to liquid during a different 1-3 UCL home loss, but that was the reason I became a Lionel Messi diehard and what a glorious ride it became; simply Messi-merising! Football taught me that even if you train very well, prepare extremely good tactics or have a lot of talent, you can still lose by even just one goal in the last minute. I have followed football since the late 80s and the only match that brought tears to my eyes was when Leeds United beat Arsenal 1-0 at Elland Road in Y2K with a goal from Olivier Dacourt because it brought back memories of the failed title defence the preceding season at the same venue. I was 14 years old when tears formed; every Arsenal victory over the Whites after that match has always been sweet...
2016: Moses Wamala dives into speeding train in Mukono after his fiancée tells him to wait for sex after marriage. His neighbour Amos Kabonge and church fellowship pastor point at the same reason. Wamala at first alleged that his lover was seeing another man, but she denied it. No one suspected that Wamala would end his life...
My beloved cousin Emmanuel Drabo (fondly referred to as Emmy) hangs himself in Mvara (Arua); he wanted to go for further studies and was not satisfied with his income flow. A Mukiga friend of mine attending a wedding in Arua as the Best Man on the burial day joked that I would commit suicide next simply because he heard that I used to flirt with one of his tribemates whose family he knew about; he actually knew about a 2nd girl very well too: She called me silly and a loser. I could not join my good buddy for his friend's happy day, neither did I celebrate when Uganda qualified for AFCON 2017 after 39 years of failure because I was mourning my cousin. There was a wooden video shack near his bereaved father's home and when Farouk Miya scored the all important goal, I heard the jubilation, but didn't celebrate...
2018: A South Sudanese-Kakwa namesake (Edward John Lukudu) doing IT at Bugema University (Arua) hangs himself on Tuesday 17th April at 4pm with an electric cable thrown up the timber of his hostelroom's roof after his laptop and bag are stolen. It could have been me the following Wednesday morning when I discovered this suicide after a dreamvision; two days later my Favourite Football Manager (Arsene Wenger) announced his decision to leave the Emirates Stadium at the end of the season. It felt like suicide forced by his haters (plastic fans); wish the Invincible One returns to Ashburton Grove in any other capacity...
Boy hangs himself on a football goalpost after getting a loan of 2 Million UGX to bail out the girl he loves only for her to reject him...
A neighbour's brother in Anyafio (Arua) hangs himself on a mango tree; a week later his daughter also tries to hang herself saying a voice told her to do it...
2019: Reagan Opito, a Senior 3 student of Aboke High School in Kole District locks up and hangs himself in a hut after allegedly being "disappointed in love". His suicide note indicates that his "long time girlfriend" who was in Senior 2 in the same school terminated their two-year relationship. It was through telephone that she said she would not marry him; he had contributed to her tuition...
26 year old Pharmacist Richard Olaja commits suicide on 20th June in Jinja after being exposed in a BBC Africa Eye documentary in conjunction with Uganda's NBS TV about "Stealing From The Sick"; he sold Government drugs illicitly...
MUBS graduate Arthur Basalirwa commits suicide after posting suicide notes on social media (Facebook and WhatsApp): Go ahead and call me a coward and say am not strong, because am not like you...
Fred Burondwa (UCU First Year Law student) goes missing after writing a suicide note: It’s been 23 years on earth and I think it was great we had to meet, you made every single day in my life worth. I have decided that I don’t need to stick around in a world I don’t want to be a part of anymore. I will never forget the gut-wrenching moment we have shared. I am unsure how I can cope more in the same situation. I surely have to leave. I rather die than walk in shame. It is good to give people the peace and life they want. I hope the people that never wanted me around enjoy it. If I ever wronged you, which I know I didn’t, I am sorry. In a few after you receive this, I will be gone and you will never see me ever again. Not even my body. I think that’s what they wanted. Don’t be worried because surely the sun will come up early morning. The world will surely go on. To my friends, I am sorry for letting you down, never forget that in whatever we do ‘we are ever the best’, be it and our flames should never burn out...
Ashraf Nsubuga (4th Year student at Makerere University) commits suicide in his room (September) because of debts...
2020: Aloysius Khatondi, 54 year old teacher at Bubungi Primary School (Bududa) is found hanging on a tree behind his home. He was facing difficulties in the family ranging from accumulated debts, feeding and looking after the family after lockdown...
Ronald Emuria alias Boyi commits suicide in Malaba citing economic hardship. His wife abandoned him because he was no longer earning from the taxi business after public transport was suspended. He was discovered dangling in the middle of his house after using a rope to hang himself...
2021: Vin Karungi, 18, drinks poison in Ntoroko District after being beaten by her cattle-keeping father who had confiscated her recently-acquired smartphone...
The beautiful Natasha Byenjeru (Law student) commits suicide on 6th June after failing a retake three times. She had joined Makerere University in 2015 and did not want to ashame her parents. Tasha was also addicted to drugs according to her close friends...
Teenager hangs herself in Hoima on a jackfruit tree after harsh comments from many people for performing poorly during the 2020 PLE exams. Daphine (Na)kimuli obtained Aggregate 28 in the four subjects. Personally, I got 4 on 4 in 1996 PLE, but never despised anybody who got 36 (worst possibility) because school does not end in P7. In her suicide note, she described how she was feeling unloved, describing how her parents, siblings plus other relatives scolded her over her PLE performance; she took her own life to get rid of that discomfort. Daphine mentioned several people including Madam Jesca whom she described as her "Best Enemy". She advised her fellow children and relatives never to commit suicide and encouraged them to live happily, "See you when you die also, but don't kill yourself also!" She was tired. The school headteacher at Bwikya PS (Mr. Francis Bagonza) described her as a quiet, well disciplined pupil (July 2021)...
Kimuli Daphine's Will (Handwritten on ruled paper):
I'm killing myself because am tired of people. Why? What am seeing: Many people are my enemy. I can't stay alive with this enemy; this people belongs to my sisters, brothers, nephews, cousins, nieces, uncles, aunts and someone called Madam Jesca. Jesca is my best enemy and this is why I have killed myself. I'm tired of her too much. Live many years in this world your Almight! My money which are with Shaminah, give to my parents only, they are 10,000 /= and my things shared by sisters only! Why can I stay alive when am learning badly? They talk about me; I don't want. Let me leave this world earlier; all live for many years.
See you when you die also, but don't kill yourself also!
See you!
Those who never want me, now I have gone.
See you!
You Madam Jesca, you will not live for many years; you talked me too much words!
You will see if your GOD.
You're escorting me.
I'm going; now am tired!
See you!
2022: Emmanuel Okello, 18, a Senior 4 student of Makerere College School hangs himself in the compound after locking his father Moses Opio inside the house on 10th January while his siblings are taken to school. The deceased had expressed his disinterest in returning to Macos. His father had even got him a position at St. Kizito SS Namugongo, but he wasn't happy about the choice. I studied at Macos (My 2nd Choice after Ordinary Level at SMACK) and despite being rebuked by a few schoolmates plus whipped at sunrise for leaving the hostel late, there was nothing else that made life undesirable there; it was a very fun place: Friends, Main Hall Concerts (or Productions), Library, MAPA Festivals, sneaking out to watch Arsenal games, UEFA Champions League nights in the hostel studyroom, Weekend flicks, Sunday service plus special lunch, appreciating beautiful campus Women passing through our school side, adorable schoolmates, etc...
Sainai?, wife of Joseph Ajwal hangs herself on 28th March due to mental illness after 17 years in marriage. She gives away her bank details to her sister, hugs and kisses their three children for 15 minutes while her husband revs up his car to take them to school. Then the 37 year old unusually waves goodbye at Joseph for three minutes; he reads gratitude on her lips. At midday, Joseph receives phonecalls in his office alerting him about a problem at home. Uganda Counselling Association advises to pick lessons from this soul-crashing suicide testimony: No one is immune against suicide...
Policeman attached to Field Force Unit (after working for the Armoury) at Arua Central Police Station parks car around Sunday 24th April 2022 and hangs himself; leaves no suicide note. Martin Aluma, who was Andrew Felix Kaweesi's bodyguard before the 17th March 2017 assassination of the former Assistant Inspector General of Police (AIGP) gives the keys to his motor vehicle to a woman he is staying with at Ayiko Cell, Ayivu Division in Arua City at 8pm saying he is going on a journey. His body is found hanging on a tree in Mission Cell, Komite Ward, Ayivu West Division, Arua City at 6am...
Rogers Atuhaire, a private guard with SGA Security Company shoots himself dead at Mukwasi Building along Buganda Road in Kampala around 9am in May 2022...
Bright Namusoke, 20, a Senior 6 student at Kitebi Senior Secondary School hangs herself with a rope at about 4pm on Wednesday 6th July 2022 in Ngobe Zone, Bunamwaya Division, Ssabagabo Municipality, Wakiso District. Relatives tell Police how Namusoke returned from school and informed them that a teacher abused her and she was very angry; they don't take it seriously, but later find her hanging in one of the rooms in their house...
Monic(a) Karungi (aka Mona Kizz on Facebook, born in Isingiro), 24, falls from a window of the Al Fahad Building in Dubai (about 7-9 storeys high) apparently after finding out that the man she used to send her kyeyo money to back in UG used it to marry a different woman. The waitress used to earn 2 Million UGX per month. Other people speculate that work-related ish [BS issues] caused her to commit suicide. Her last notes can be seen on Facebook and Instagram though her brother Jackson Akwandanaho intimates that his younger sister was pushed (as in murdered) following misunderstandings with four friends who stayed with her. She was planning to shift after Eid Day. Karungi's face-down fall is so chillingly horrific that she breaks every bone in her body. May GOD be merciful... In Twenty25, BBC Africa Eye releases a 6-part investigative documentary about "Death in Dubai" and shows the face of Charles Mwesigwa, a former Ugandan busdriver in UK who recruits "open-minded" girls from UG for dehumanising porta potty deals starting from 1,000 US Dollars; Mona tried to break away from his control according to interviewed friends who knew her in Dubai, but ended up dead. Some clients would pay 3,000 Pounds to gangrape, pee on and beat girls plus an extra 1,000 Pounds if a girl can eat their faeces while being recorded...
Arafat Kasule, only 11 years old and in P4, hangs himself on a mango tree at St. Luke Catholic Church Kyanja, about 250 metres from Kabira UMEA Primary School where he reported at 8am on 14th September 2022, but didn't attend classes...
Private bodyguard Wilson Sabiti kills himself using his gun after shooting his boss Rtd. Col. Charles (Patrick Okello) Engola, the Ugandan State Minister for Labour, Employment and Industrial Relations in May 2023. Witnesses say the soldier fired bullets in the air while yelling that he had not been paid (about 4 Million UGX) for a long time despite having worked for the minister. Senior Presidential Advisor on Media Joseph Tamale Mirundi narrates, "The bodyguard saw the minister receiving money after making deals at Labour Day celebrations and was sure that at least he was going to get some money to solve his problems." Sources divulge how the minister directed that 140,000 UGX be given to Sabiti through his mobile money account, but he gave them another person's phone number because he had a debt on his line. The next morning, Sabiti demanded for more money...
Mariana Lokwii, 28, mother of seven children in Loteerei Village, Longaroe Subcounty, Kotido District commits suicide over starvation due to prevalent drought and biting hunger in the region (August 2022)...
Denis Tukei found hanging in dormitory by students returning from lunch. He was a Senior 6 student of Bukoyo Secondary School (Iganga) who betted part of his school fees (November 2022)...
Muwonge Ssalongo found hanging in a cell in Tororo Police Station. He was a suspect arrested in Kampala over shooting at security personnel at Kapeeka Town Council in Nakaseke District...
Isa Tibinuma who sold off his 20 by 45 feet land on 16th December 2022 for 800,000 UGX poisons himself after losing all of it in a World Cup bet...
2023: During the DNA craze that gripped Uganda, a man discovers that two of his three "children" are not his yet he invested a lot of money in them; he jumps off a building...
Native doctor named Joseph Mwigo in Butaleja District drowns himself in the fishpond of Ahmed Kambo Umoja on Tuesday 24th January 2025 after his wife marries another man. The 38 year old first took poison and was admitted at Busolwe Hospital on 27th December 2022 from where he recovered, less than a month before his suicide...
Nelson Drici, 42 year old resident of Adjumani locks himself inside his hut at 3:45pm and sets it ablaze on Martyrs Day...
2024: Ugandan TikTok sensation Basher Williams (Master Of Tears) takes her own life following a tumultuous period of misunderstandings with her boyfriend...
Brilliant 39 year old digital marketer John Babirukamu jumps to his death from Tagore Living Apartments in Kamwokya at the end of May. He was unhappy and depressed. A Lugbaraganda friend of mine who sometimes mysteriously checked on me whenever I was feeling very low and down in my heart told me she hopes I do not jump. Why should I commit suicide? I still have a lot to achieve; 120 years is not even enough...
Emmanuel Ekisa, a 27 year old Police Constable (PC) attached to Iyolwa Police Post shoots himself dead (during April) and leaves a suicide note...
Bright A-Level girl Hawa Nantongo hangs on a tree in Kisaasi during June 2024 after her mother forces her to study a Sciences combination. Relatives said she had wounds on her back plus her school Wampewo Ntakke Secondary School had three guards (How could she have escaped?) and was probably killed...
Guard shoots himself dead after losing motorcycle he was paid to protect...
Jordan Opileni, a "jolly" St. Philip's Church Sunday School teacher, about 26 years old commits suicide at White House Guesthouse in Ediofe (West of Arua City). He leaves behind a widow, orphan and SN (or Suicide Note)...
2025: Lt. Amon Ariho (RO/13999), a UPDF soldier in the Engineering Brigade stops his black car (UBJ 493Q) at the local football field in Nakirebe, between Wakiso and Mpigi districts at 2PM on Wednesday 1st January 2025. He disperses the players from the field, retrieves an SMG rifle from his vehicle and shoots himself. In his suicide note addressed to CDF (Chief of Defence Forces), he points out Eng. Ogwang as the cause of his demise: (H)e dismissed every engineer who was working within the Central Region even without allowing them to serve under him for a single day... He asked for his body to be taken to Rukiga District and children taken good care of... He drove a very nice black Toyota car nonetheless...
Nikita Kiconco, a 21 year old in Senior 6 is found hanging from the roof of her dormitory shortly after students return from church services on the afternoon of 20th April 2025 at Solberg College in Kabale District...
Man removes his shoes and jumps off Laropi Ferry into River Nile on Wednesday 21st May 2025...
Three youngins commit suicide in Maracha East on different days around August 2025 including clanmate Molly Drajiru's grandson who killed himself at home after being beaten for taking a construction supervisor's misplaced 80,000 UG Shillings and spending 20K; a dude near Aruwe Church of Uganda plus a P4 pupil at Ojapi Primary School. During clan discussions, a woman was identified as having poisoned one of them and was evicted with her kids...
Private Samuel Kwesiga, a 32-year-old UPDF soldier in Kisoro shoots himself after Riccardo Calafiori' s header from a corner for the Old Trafford visitors from North London (Arsenal) beat Manchester United in their opening match of the 2026 English Premiership on Sunday 17th August 2025. I did not even follow that game because my beloved uncle (Jad Johnsons Tabule) had died the preceding day...
TE MI DRA A'DUSI?:
Suffer Patiently or Quietly (I learnt that mantra from Sniper School): Take the dark nights or grey skies and sunny days, salt and sugar, sweet juice and sour medicine, droughts and feasts, success and failure, wins and losses, admission and retrenchment, kisses and insults, highs and lows! Life is a depressingly monotonous routine: Wake up, work, study, travel, eat, visit toilet, solve problems, sleep; then repeat. The earlier you accept your predicament, the smoother you go through the motions for 120 years waiting for GOD to cut your silver cord (Ecclesiastes 12:6) instead of unwinding it yourself and giving to the Angel of Death or break your golden bowl. Unreceived Prayer answers can be depressing too like Prince of Persia and Greece (Daniel 10) type of way, but GOD remains LORD; remember how HE made meat fly to the complaining Israelites! Better calm down. A Nigerian proverb says: If you put all your problems in one basket and take to the market, then you will discover that there are people with bigger baskets than yours. You fill a kobi [Lugbara winnowing basket] and discover there are actually people with issues that fill up a big ogea [harvesting basket]. You plant crops and animals eat the newly germinated shoots while another farmer's harvest is robbed before he can enjoy it. Rats eat your property; villagers mock you; lovers switch up on you; employers do not hire you; the list is endless. Depression is not an achievement; you snap-out of it quickly before it overrides your hope for a better future. Everyone goes through Ish [Shit, Dung]. Barcelona FC midfielder Pep Guardiola, the Best Passer of the Ball in the 90s taught me to improve whenever I lose.
When life makes you feel at the bottom like a shoe, just keep walking; Footsubishi, Walkswagen (Walk Swag On), Gumbootini, Legsus, Daihatshoe, Toeyota, Shoebaru, etc! Depression is merely prolonged sadness; it's when you experience a brain attack (brain pain, according to suicide-survivor Kevin Hines) full of insidious lies and half-truths week after week. According to Psychology Today: Unlike being unhappy, depression is a very intense feeling of deep sadness and despair that can last for days, weeks or even months. One Sunday morning, my father returned from Church, found me sweeping at the entrance and told me with distress in his voice that by living quietly, I lose the opportunity to become important in society; maybe I let him down with my silent lifestyle because am not visibly active in public places (nor very wealthy), but that convo almost deflated me. I had heard similar words from two girls near Kanyanya before, but they meant nothing back then. A UCU fellow posted on Facebook how the same words (Spoken by someone else in Luganda: Tolina mugaso ku'nsi) made her feel bad, but I expected her to cope; she's a big girl: I used to call her Spiderwoman. My father was so emotional about my low-key status that I felt like my spirit was about to leave my body, but used a 7 to 10 second window to sit down on a skyblue plastic stool and stay calm instead of collapsing. Making too much noise is not really my nature; I try to do it through Art or online instead. Baba unrelentingly repeated something similar on Monday 15th March 2021 calling me "unsocial" and I felt about 83 minutes of pitchblack gloom within my soul until I got a very uplifting surprise message at exactly 23:23 (just before I slept) from my ex-hearthrob whom I grew apart with in February 2005 (which was heartwreck for me) though we reconciled after three cold years. It was as if GOD whispered to her to check on me; her timely message healed me a bit even though I solve my problems through Dreamvisions: I try to exist silently like a plotter because the mind is the command centre of everything that concerns you. Life is wild, I have to be very prudent! When I used to move out a lot (I would leave before sunrise and return after sunset), I was castigated for not staying home. It oppressed my mind too much that I started working from home instead and only go out when inevitable. My mother told me I have nothing in my hands and always stressed that am jobless. Every sunrise is a fresh beginning: No matter how dark the night, the lonely Sun always rises (to shine brightly) again without complaining. Cheers to new days, resets and restarts! Whenever people shame my skinniness, I feel absolutely nothing - zilch, nara; my bodysize is the frame GOD gave me and am proud of it because I do not have to worry about weight loss exercises like obese people. I fast food every week to detox my body and also for spiritual reasons. I know am not perfect, so there is nothing anyone can say that can make me hate my life; I already know my downside. A Senior 5 classmate in my new school Macos (where I had been sold by SMACK despite getting 15 points which was within the promised 17 point cutoff mark threshold) kept calling me "daft, stupid, fake and boring (with cassava-stem legs)", but instead of believing him nor feeling shredded, I fought back mentally and almost killed him with scheduled physical punches. All he wanted was for me to amuse him about "Women, Arsenal and Computers"; how absurd! Simon (the fisherman or the other of Cyrene who carried the cross for YESU) says: Shut the fig up! I will cut off your ear or break your nose. He did not even intimidate me; I had seen scarier boys in Kisubi (murderers, bullies, homosexuals, thieves, witches, etc), but the Devil was probably using him unknowingly to try and steal my peace. We all get bored (I do too though never say it), but it is primitive to blame others for your boredom; sneak into class with a radio scanner, Walkman, iPod or something else like a magazine or novel. I told him in his face that I was "going to bury" him if he did not stop belittling me and he eased up. He would check my grade results to confirm if he had done better than me, but find out he was actually dafter than me in academics; I always scored more points. Having knowledge about many earthly things does not mean I can tease other people about their ignorance (Tebagala kumanya [Translated from Luganda: They do not want to know]); noone owns knowledge nor correct answers, not even Bill Gates - his role model. I forgave the prick to save my own soul from damnation. The only knowledge we need is that JESUS died on a cross for our sins. If no employer hires you for a job, it's probably the LORD giving you time to become an entrepreneur; use your talents, if not five, then at least two or one! Throughout boarding school, I bedwetted (and even a girl I fancied in primary school knew it), but it did not make me hate my existence. The harder I prayed not to bedwet, the more I peed in my sleep on some nights as if some water spirit was blocking my prayers and mocking me. The only efficient remedy I got was to put a waterproof Macintosh sheet on my mattress; I would recommend a mattress protector to anyone (including toddlers) with bedwetting problems. My beloved cousin rebuked me as "lousy" in 2010 and it felt like a belly stab, but I forgave her tongue, then a South Sudanese chick in the US who wanted me to teach her Luganda language also labelled me a "useless man" via Facebook all because of money matters (Had told her bridewealth in the Bible starts at 50 Shekels which is 14 US Dollars) and I lost interest in chatting with her: Being dead broke is the root of all evil. I do not worship money; my trust is in GOD who feeds sparrows and clothes flowers, so moolah ain't a thing. Money is not even more valuable than family nor friends; it's just a number. Wait when digital currency becomes the norm, mere digits on screens depressing us for no reason. Money comes and goes, eat it like Pakistani rice: I use the little money in my life like other tools eg pliers, but the Almighty is LORD of the entire universe. Worship GOD, not Mammon money!
My father would get harsh on me occassionally in the new millenium and tell me that what if I get a harsh boss or manager at the workplace. I got his parenting drift, but tough love is not training. If I was delicate like I used to be as a kid, I would probably become suicidal, but 1992 was a great lesson in mindshifting... My mother always wondered what happened to me (I became more docile) yet I was famous for football while younger...
My Big Sister said am demon-possessed, cursed and need psychosocial help... My Big Brother asked me one Sunday at Oasis Inn Arua if I was depressed and/ or wanted to commit suicide. I told him if I wanted to commit suicide, then I would have done it already; I still want to enjoy GOD's Earth... My other three sisters also got concerned; the one I follow usually gave me articles on anxiety and worrying. Do I exude depression or the behaviours of suicidal people? Maybe I fought depression so hard while growing up that it left scarmarks on my spiritual persona...
I don't want to die; I'd rather go to Heaven like Enoch or Elijah...
Give my heart peace, LORD!
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me... (Philippians 4:13)
Organisations like Uganda Police Force (UPF) Emergency (999 or 112), Uganda Foundation for Suicide Prevention (UFSP), Mental Health Uganda (Call MHU on 0800-212121 for counselling), etc can help depression sufferers deal with suicide ideation. If Depression is a monster, then what do we do to a monster? We stretch its mouth so that it cannot bite like Samson wrestled with a lion, stone it and cut off its head with GOD's help like David versus Goliath or throw it in the fire like the viper snake that attached itself to Paul's hand; it's all mental...
The number 988 is the Mental Health, Suicide and Crisis, Emotional Distress or Substance Abuse Helpline in the United States instead of the well-known 911 which handles crime and other life-threatening situations like fire. You can chat online via 988lifeline.org too...
We live in different timezones; the time for your success might be different. Therefore, never envy anybody...
GOD over money... (Deonte Hall)
Despite the pain, rejection, negative criticism, failures, complexes, family problems, etc, there is a way out...
2001 was a very crazy year: Arsenal lost the FA Cup final though led from the first half and I cussed at Heaven though apologised immediately after realising that the absence of the Holy Spirit might mean instant death and worms; SMACK sold me to Macos despite performing within the 17 on 8 passmark we were promised (Got 15); classmate in new school kept belittling me and I summoned the Devil in order to kill him; dropped out of the Fine Art class and was painfully rejected from the Technical Drawing class. So, with teary eyes, I silently vowed to teach myself how to draw plus started writing the name of GOD in all caps...
Depression is a choice; that is why I avoid suicidal thoughts through Mindshifting (Full control of my own Omi [Mind]). Some of the Suicide Notes people write as reasons for ending their lives can be sorted out with time and utilising your 3rd Eye just above and between your two outside eyes (where your mind, body and soul meet to jump waking reality plus find unlimited, but hidden inner wisdom). All of us go through Pain (Abuse, Curses, Difficulties, Disappointments, Failure, Frustration, Grief, Insults, Intimidation, Losses, Love-gone bad, Misfortune, Mistakes, Poverty, Rejection, Shame, Sickness, Stress, Struggles, etc); some people just absorb the shocks, cope and move on faster. Others cling to their pain instead of renewing their minds. After discovering on 23rd December 2001 that the first girl I ever loved like myself had been dead for some time, I searched for another who used to care about me until the lady told me I will be perfect without her (as my wife). She used to be so kind to me that it felt like she had three hearts. That was the 2nd wallcrack in my heart; her J. Lo-licious half-sister consoled me, but she also had other dudes on her case. So I chased after a new babe for 16 months on campus until growing apart brought me some type of heartwreck (I probably died in 2005 like The Wolverine from a heart-weakening problem) which I mended by befriending a supercalm Mukiga plus re-adoring a preteen I fancied since A-Level holidays. It's all about mental jumps. I cannot kill myself just because one skirt rejected me; there are billions and billions of others on the entire Debit Earth. Women lie, men lie; but keep smiling! Narcotic drugs (like the Devil's purple pellets) nor marijuana smoking (maybe marijuana tea) nor alcoholism are not even solutions, dust yourself up and try again! If you have a problem, then just look up (oneway) to Heaven. Betty Mpologoma advises: Londa e namba yo [Pick your number]...
After shockingly breaking my two left toes (big one and second) during an evening farewell match in Twenty12 (Had got a frightening muscle pull too in the early afternoon while boarding a taxi to Mukono plus survived an ankle fracture by a metal railing that fellow players noticed), Sarah Mudahogora (who worked at a campus office next door) asked me at night: Do you want to die? Why should I desire death yet there are beautiful women like her to meet? I went back home in KLA City late with pain (Somebody even told Basketball Coach Nicholas Natuhereza who I met on my way). Nevertheless, within a month of natural healing, I got my third KADS painting project and Aguero won Man City's first English League title in 44 years...
Every crisis has steps to recovery...
Facing hookworms, ringworms and Guineaworms during the 90s taught me that cleanliness is paramount for mental health too...
Grow a thick skin...
Suicide is a crime against yourself...
You have everything you need around you; open your eyes...
In Twenty11 after only one month in my dream job at New Vision newspaper, my 4th cousin asked me if I would have pension funds when I reach retirement age and a dark cloud hovered above my bedroom; smoked marijuana to bring me peace. Not even a pre-recorded call from M7 thanking me for voting was enough because I did not vote though wished him victory...
Unrequited love is not sweet; just breathe again...
Death is a journey to a different city with no physical luggage...
I do not need your approval nor validation...
Fast and pray; even JESUS said some stubborn demons cannot leave until you fast...
Rejection is redirection...
When life throws you bitter lemons, make bitter lemon juice and drink...
When life throws tangawizi [ginger] at you, add to sweet undiluted mango juice with zero sugar and drink thankfully...
Pull yourself out of the trench or gutter mud...
Stay away from drugs and alcohol...
Treatments for depression according to many experts include: Medications (Antidepressants); Psychotherapy (Cognitive behavioural therapy, Interpersonal therapy); Lifestyle; etc. However, intellectual arrogance must not make us think drugs are the best solution; they actually make some people worse bodywise...
Uganda's National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 0800 200 400 (Toll free)...
Butabika Mental (or Psychiatric) Hospital on Plot 2 Kirombe-Butabika Road in Kampala City with 900 beds is free; call 0414-504376...
Befrienders.org (charity registered in England and Wales) links suicidal people to members willing to listen to their problems and offer support 24/7. For Ugandans, the closest help centre out of over 90 globally is in Kenya...
There is a psychiatric Mental Section at Arua Regional Referral Hospital (ARRH) next to Catholic Centre...
Depression Sanctuary...
Beautiful Aspirations SMC Limited...
Mental Health Uganda opens at 8:30am in Lungujja, Makamba Zone Cell 15, House 58 (Kampala City); call 039-2178953; Toll Free Number: 0800-212121; Conversations change lives...
Depression Network; call or WhatsApp +256-781-345712 (Tuesday 1st October 2024)...
Suicide Prevention Association (SPA): Ask Doctor Jaku...
Be yourself...
Why worry about public opinion yet you have private opinions?
Life is very depressing, but staying depressed is your own decision...
No pressure...
Fight, fight, fight the darkness and gloom...
Learn how to be a loser without shame... GOD is the Omega; HE gives strength to the last...
Life has its bends...
My first real love was poisoned. A preteen friend I thought loved me three times more than I could wish for told me seven years later that she had a boyfriend and I stepped back. The campus woman I plotted to marry told me everything I want to give her she will get from another man. A different crush (11 years younger) who changed my life assured me that she was not interested in my obsession plus I must stop nagging her (Even blocked me on Facebook). Meanwhile, my "girlfriend" fired me for not supporting Manchester United and my misleading Best Friend married someone else though I had shockingly confirmed their secret affair seven years behind on a sunny afternoon as if a spirit led me to her gate (in a spiritually-charged area near Emerald Hotel); later told me she regretted it after her husband cheated on her multiple times, but I still didn't trust her... Then I dreamt that I got married to a superstar who already has kids with other men...
Some people do not like you, so do not try too hard to impress them...
GOD provides; temutukoya [Luganda for: Do not exhaust us]...
Swallow humiliation like a capsule...
Please stay...
The Devil will try to depress everyone anyway, so choose if you will remain there...
Improvise...
The Devil, demons and Nephilim evil spirits can speak through other people...
Wait for GOD's time; yours is just impatient...
I cannot kill myself... (Sugarboy)
People drink to forget their problems, but after hangover, the memories rush back unblocked...
What kind of father gives his son a stone when he asks for bread? A wrathful father...
I won't kill myself just because GOD has not given me everything I want...
Get through life...
Do not let rejection drain you completely...
Anyone can be affected by depression... (Andres Iniesta, 2010 Ballon d'Or recipient)
Life is what GOD makes it...
Love back all those who love you...
When you're dead broke, GOD makes you feel rich; our FATHER in Heaven created everything...
Do not kill yourself...
If GOD does not give you everything you want, then want GOD more than everything...
Be kind to others, not harsh nor cruel...
Play your role...
What kind of father gives his son a snake when he asks for fish? A devilish father...
Physical exhaustion and lack of sleep can feel depressing; just rest or sleep and wake up refreshed...
Suicide is a oneway ticket to Hell...
Criticism is hatred dressed in rags...
I refuse to cry... (JoJo)
Why can't life be so breezy?
This life, I can't kill myself... Allow me to flex o... (Timaya)
Tolerate the pain...
Do not sob...
Chronic stress can lead to depression...
Parents rebuke and fail to give children everything they want. Kids may keep quiet, but the suppressed emotions become low self-esteem, anger in the belly, hate or wrath which comes from the back...
Stay alive...
We came to Earth with nothing and will depart with nothing, not even a shoelace...
Sometimes you win, other times you lose, but learn...
Homosexuality is devilish and unnatural; do not practise it or you might end up depressed...
Change your mindset...
We are slaves to money and the culture; free us, LORD...
Cope with the devilish issues of this life...
Use the words thrown at you as stepping stones for your gravel path...
Pray, pray, pray; repeat...
If you are depressed, then take a deep rest...
Let them say... (Musa Kaya)
Until next season...
Depression can result into diabetes, cancer or heart problems...
Some woman said that my mother died because I did not buy her food. Did I have to announce everytime I bought something?
Fasting detoxes the mind, body and soul...
Mutusingako ki [Luganda for: What do you have better than us]? (Pallaso)
Some things will not go your way; live with it...
Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD) adds emptiness to the mind unless you enjoy it as it frees your mind from clatter...
More prayers, less depression...
Gay marriage is from the Devil; what Satan has brought together, any man can put asunder. Repent and marry the opposite sex instead...
Take a walk in the open air outside the four walls tormenting your mind...
Chai-3...
Tour Heaven...
BigAMBO [Words]...
Don't break when you're broken.... (Michael Jordan)
The Red Dragon hates everybody...
Stress free...
Even when you have no money in your pocket or bank account, the things around you may be worth millions, but you still feel poor...
Poverty is just an opinion...
Synthetic happiness is inversely more limitless than natural happiness...
Melt the pressure...
Try living without any money...
Train for the next match...
If everybody is a sinner, then everybody can be a winner... (Coolio)
Avoid psychedelic drugs...
Every good thing you see was created by LODI... (Zabuli, Ugandan musician who aborted several times)
Quarrels, arguments, disagreements, domestic stress, etc end through silence...
JESUS is the Way out of prison...
Life is 20 percent event, 80 percent reaction... (Apostle Moses Mukisa)
Courage is converting fear into adrenaline fuel...
The Angel of Death looks like a pale and thinner Michael Jackson...
Same routine everyday: Wake up, work, eat, excrete; repeat... No escape...
Maximise your pain...
Grief happens to everyone; we all have family, friends, neighbours and colleagues who die...
Don't melt when your heart melts...
Prepare for the bruises... Let's go... (Tom Brady)
If you do not have a lover or children, then people say you are not favoured, but cursed. However, when you have multiple lovers plus several children, then you are a sinner, prostitute, polygamist or polygynist without family planning, blah blah blah. Talkers will talk...
Get out of your mental prison...
We all react to problems differently; learn from the resilient...
Fees, debts, money problems? Give them to GOD...
Trauma gets healed...
The Devil is real and he walks around on Earth like a Lion of Hell looking for whom to devour with his temptations...
I fear nobody because I can skin anybody alive with my tongue or keyboard, but prefer peace (No battles)...
My childhood wish was to become like Romario, but I turned into a Romero instead...
Keep your head up...
Traders used to say Mukono has the strongest witchcraft. I got stung by multiple wasps in Mukono, fell mysteriously at my first hostel twice, got Typhoid, got a weird boil on my head, broke my toes and was given drugs for Gonorrhea. I also went through a tough migraine headache in 1st Semester that felt like glasses cutting my brain as I saw a dark creature with infinite legs outside the Earth's atmosphere (Parallax in Green Lantern film is similar). Some told me my sickness might have been witchcraft because it happened during exam week; I fought hard with GOD's help and got a bursary; recovered in KLA and Arua during Christmas vacation...
Complaining about boredom is a symptom of mild depression...
Worship GOD without ceasing...
Fear no bully; they only wear masks you can take off by facing off with them without timidity...
Brainswarm solutions to your problems...
What can a woman do when her father-in-law does not appreciate the things she does, no matter how hard she works? A time might arrive when she becomes numb, tired of what people want her to be and just do what she can plus let them complain...
Synthetic Happiness is how you respond to or process the things that happen to you plus are said against you...
What a friend we have in JESUS! Do your friends despise, forsake you? Take it to the LORD in prayer... (Church hymn)
When you do not tell a girl you love her, she will say you are a coward. Nevertheless, when you do and ask for her love, you can still be rejected...
Do not fear a bully who can bleed, Mowgli-style or Are We There Yet (film) grin... My worst year in school was during Senior 2, but at least thrice without fear I faced off with S4s who tried bullying me... My yearmates mocked them a lot so we had very bad blood and would get attacked in the dining hall at night during electricity load-shedding...
Suicide is when your own mind betrays and attacks you...
When mockery comes in through one ear, let it out the other...
A friend of mine broke up with my 3rd cousin's niece and started drinking plus smoking more than before. He later married a foreigner...
JESUS, please heal... (Kanye West)
Utilise your problems...
Throw your nets on the right... (JESUS Christ, Lord of the Universe)
Dangers everywhere: Snakes, hot motorcycle exhaustpipes, thieves, accidents, thorns, knives, electric shocks, insults (emotional abuse), safariants, stomach upsets, Typhoid, Flu, Malaria, lack of money, headaches, dental pain, cuts, burns, metal pricks, hate (mockery), etc... Just depressing; go away...
Words cannot kill unless you let them: Lousy, pauper, destitute, useless man, unsocial, no importance in society, cursed, things he cooks will not taste nice, daft, stupid, fake, boring, etc...
Depression is a choice: Winning the Battle Without Drugs... (A. B. Curtiss, Cognitive Behavioural Therapist)
Life is about longsuffering (120 years of pain mixed with pleasure)...
Don't abortion your womb... Nothing is fair... (Nas)
Depression is not a monster like jabberwock; depression is a choice. Look in the mirror and laugh...
Money is not everything; GOD is...
One like (your own) is enough on your social media post; two likes is just a bonus...
Live in your own world like babies do, worried about nara...
Depression is hunger in the mind; feed your mind with healthy words that nourish (like: I'm blessed, talented, unstoppable, etc)...
Fasting is the Best Medicine I discovered in Arua during Twenty17 after suffering from Typhoid in three different summers out of four (The ones when Arsenal won the FA Cup)...
You overcome depression through prayer and mindshifting to GOD...
After misery comes happiness; simple 1-2-3 mathematical continuity...
GOD is great, am not...
When society calls you zero, it doesn't make them Number 1; JESUS is Number 1...
People commit suicide because they think their problems are bigger than GOD...
Life is 33 percent bitter by default; just enjoy the remaining 67 percent sweetness...
Money is just a number...
Public opinion must not manipulatively control you to hate yourself...
Extract action points from criticisms, rebukes and insults...
Take a walk in the open air, outside the four walls depressing you...
Exercise; let off steam...
Love yourself even if no one else does...
Do not underestimate basics, foundations, first steps or fundamentals...
The obstacle is the way through, beside, under or over...
Enjoy the fresh forest-oxygen...
Wait patiently for your problems to fall like the sunset...
Staying depressed is a choice...
Before my mother departed the Earth in Kyebando at sunrise on Friday 16th December 2022 (Her 75th Birthday; my Dad called every Friday bad afterwards), I knelt down in the southern kitchen in Anyafio around 4pm on Thursday 15th and begged GOD to heal her colon cancer plus ulcers; GOD didn't grant my wish as I wanted. Instead of crying, I bottled up all my pain until I heard Brenda Fassie's song "Mama, Rest In Peace!" playing on radio the following year one sunny day. With tears in my eyes, I told GOD: I miss my mum! I didn't cry immediately my mother died because I had already done that uncontrollably in Twenty13 when she visited me in Kyebando: I begged her never to say that I do not want to listen to her. I apologised for all the wrongs I had ever done during my upbringing because I believed (basing on a dream) that a decade later, I may not be alive, then left KLA to live with her for the final decade. As a kid in Jinja, I used to pray that I would die before my parents so that I do not feel the grief of losing them, but then started praying that I could live long so that they live longer...
When life pushes you down, get back up...
Do not give up...
Make more friends...
Your season will come... (K'Naan)
Persist...
If you miss the taxi, then just wait for the next one...
Wake up and pray...
Sometimes, finding YOU (GOD) is just like trying to smell the colour 9. Nine is not a colour and even if it were, you can't smell a colour... (Chris Rice)
Stay focussed...
Let go of romantic relationships you cannot redeem...
Pray, pray, pray...
Give my heart peace, LORD...
If you cannot get what you want, then stop wanting it...
Water is life...
Eat to live, not live to eat... (SMACK classmates)
Keep on keeping on... (MC Lyte)
Life is very very very depressing, but staying depressed is a choice...
Your struggle is your strength...
Everyone feels sad, but remaining sad for at least two straight weeks is depression...
Do not cry over spilled milk; get up, get out and get more milk... (James [Oguzua] Dramani)
Pray before sleep and when you wake up... (Elizabeth Ndezo Dramani)
Happiness is in Heaven. On Earth, there is death, sickness, accidents, thefts, wars, hatred, witchcraft, snakes, etc...
Keep your cool...
Zero suicide...
Kijakugwa [Luganda for: It will end]...
Do not kill yourself, nor cause plus assist someone else commit suicide...
Suicide is not an option...
You will never walk alone; angels are by your side...
Do not complain about your hardships lest you arouse GOD's anger like the Israelites in Numbers 11...
Detachment is as strong as obsession or addiction...
The Devil must die...
A true friend cannot betray you; traitors are just frenemies, future enemies, false pals...
Abandonment should not scare you; build a backbone in solitude...
I will not overdrink waragi nor get drunk from vodka...
Unemployment is the political terminology for laziness...
Damaged hearts mend...
Tell me who knows a peaceful place where I can go! I'm feeling low... (2Pac)
We do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but rulers, authorities, powers of this dark world, spiritual forces of evil and principalities in the air (or high places)... (Ephesians 6:12)
GOD is everything...
Every sunrise is a new beginning...
Learn from your lived experience...
The pain will subside; hang in there...
Stand up to the big giant labelled Depression; it's merely Sadness on long stick-legs...
Your future is bright; wait for it...
Be positive...
Life is a mind trip; do not slash your tyres before reaching the destination over 100 kilometres ahead...
If you are going through Hell, then just look up to Heaven...
All I need in this life of sin is GOD and JESUS...
Nobody is born knowing anything; we live and learn everyday...
Be there tomorrow... (Kevin Hines)
Bad things end...
What you do not have, you might not need...
Life is spiritual... (Erica Mukisa Kimani)
Depression is when your mind betrays you...
When broken, GOD is your healing, not drugs...
Take more photographs...
Pray without Ceasing (PwC)...
Pray without ceasing, but avoid vain repetition... (Frank Edwards)
Rejection is redirection...
Gossip is free publicity; you do not need to block it...
Lads, it's time to snap out of it... (Patrick Vieira)
If the school/ university/ company you want does not admit you, then go to the other that welcomes you...
Stop bad thoughts, replace them with alternative thinking...
For every bad memory, remember two good ones...
I will not smoke cigarettes; they are sour...
Where motivation ends, endurance continues...
Tell Robert Kiyosaki (author) that there is nothing like Rich Dad, Poor Dad; we all have one Very Very Very Rich DAD...
Stop suicide ideation...
Smile through the struggle...
Don't break when you're broken... (Michael Jordan)
Laugh with those who laugh at you; it's ironic...
The paleskinned Angel of Death whispers a suicide song to his victims...
Death is a gateway to eternity...
Everyone is entitled to 120 years on Earth...
4GV: Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us...
Count your blessings...
One maize seed when planted in soil can multiply into 120 new seeds on a cob in 120 days...
Sometimes you lose... sometimes you win... (Philipp Lahm)
Pursue self-sufficiency...
Death is simply prolonged sleep. The dead will rise again...
Jail is like a forced hideout; just adjust your mindset and patiently wait for release...
When the person you adore coldshoulders or pushes you away, gravitate to those who love and care...
Suicide is self-annihilation...
Money can't buy love, but it can buy spaghetti...
Stay calm when insulted...
Fasting allows your spirit to hear from GOD...
Noah was a drunkard, Moses was a killer, Rahab was a prostitute, David was a murderer plus wife-snatching adulterer, Solomon was a polygamist with 700 wives and 300 concubines, Peter denied JESUS three times (Not once, but thrice), Saul persecuted the Church before turning into Apostle Paul; repent your sins and change...
One groundnut seed when planted in soil can produce about 60 new groundnut seeds...
Some scars do not heal and disappear, but remind you of the past wounds forever...
Reduce suicide death by 100 percent...
Extract fuel from the negatives thrown at you...
Losses are part of the game, accept them...
Ayiko ni imu ra [Translated from Lugbara: Happiness comes surely]...
I believe you can feel depressed, but clinical depression is not real... (Andrew Tate)
If you have a problem, then just look up to Heaven... (oneway, Ch.39 on Monday 4th October 2004)
When you lose, accept defeat...
Train, prepare for new opportunities...
Something good will happen the day after tomorrow...
Be laser-focussed on your own business or negocio...
A Depression test has about nine questions; I scored 78 percent because am depressed sometimes, but never suicidal...
Less drugs, more hugs...
Be good to yourself and crawl out of the sadness pit...
Mindshifting sidesteps depression...
Do not seek validation from people who despise you...
Go through the motions...
Be yourself; those who do not like you can go drink H2O...
Words cannot kill unless you let them...
The Devil caused Prophet Job's problems, with GOD's permission...
Get through the trials of pain, lack, loss and other disappointments...
Love is better than hate; forgive...
If you feel like you were born gay, then resist it! Some feel they are natural-born thieves, killers and sluts; it doesn't mean they must be proud about their sins. I grew up feeling irritable and lustful (Slept with a girl around age 7, wanted to start the first 24/7 hardcore Porn TV in Uganda plus started masturbating as a teenager), but through reading the Bible, I realised that it is all the work of the flesh. We are all born sinners and the wages of sin is death; nobody can enter Heaven unless they are born again. Ask JESUS to wash away your sins with His holy blood...
Suicide is a oneway ticket to Hell...
You cannot erase all the bad memories in your life, but you can relegate them to a lockerbox at the back of your head...
Less pills, more skills...
I cannot kill myself... (Sugarboy)
Gain from your pain...
Don't panic...
Stay calm...
Depression is not a monster; you are the behemoth, monolith, giant, mountain...
Blue Elephant: With GOD's help, you are bigger than all your problems combined...
Life is hard, but GOD is harder by far...
Gwewetugira tajakulumwa [Luganda for: The person you are hanging yourself for won't feel hurt]... (Betty Mpologoma)
Keep your head up...
JAH love me... (Konshens)
Suffer patiently...
After the coldest and darkest nights, the warm, bright sun will rise again...
It will end in cheers, not tears...
Mindshift to GOD through JESUS...
Reasons why people commit suicide: Alcohol use; Being underweight or overweight; Belittlement; Betting losses; Boredom; Bullying; Demon possession; Disagreement/ Quarreling; Discrimination; Disease/ Sickness; Dissatisfaction with academic performance; Divorce; Drug abuse; Exclusion; Exile; Financial stress; Gender Based Violence (GBV); Grief; Hopelessness; Imprisonment; Loneliness; Mental health issues; Mockery; Physical fights; Previous suicide attempts; Personality disorders; Poor relationship with parents; Poverty/ No money; Problem gambling; Retrenchment; Ridicule; Sadness; Separation; Sexual abuse; Sexual orientation; Social isolation; Theft; Travel restrictions; Unemployment; Unrequited love; War...
GOD is bigger than all our earthly problems combined...
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true... noble... right... pure... lovely... admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things... (Philippians 4:8)
Pray to GOD, the Father through JESUS! HE can solve any problem; they are all too small for HIM: Our FATHER who art in Heaven... Give us today our daily food and forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us... Deliver us from Evil...
Amen!
(CC) Depression Network 2024-Now
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